March was the first full month of my stay in Cali and so far it was a good one. I was around my friends and taking in the new scenery. I was desperately trying to find out why ppl from outside of Oakland are scared of it. Especially East Oakland. This month I met one of my gentlemen callers for CA and I will never forget meeting this one guy from Sacramento who went to school at Laney College and wanted to see me. So when I met him, I was like lets go to Starbucks. This was the day Starbucks all around the world closed hella early to introduce some new product the next day, so we ended up going to Burger King. While I am eating he tells me the next time he comes, he wants to take me home with him to Sacramento. When he saw the look on my face, he got defensive asking me whats wrong with him. After telling him I am new out here and don't know anyone in Sacramento, I wasn't about to go with him to his house only meeting him once. And so, he left me at Burger King at 10 at night. I had no idea where I was in Oakland and then realized why ppl are afraid of Oakland. Its hella scary at night. I came here for my happiness and wasn't gonna let this incident spoil my attitude.
The next couple of weeks, almost one a day I had a date with a different guy. Almost all of them were rejects, either didn't want to take me out and just wanted sex, or wanted more after they took me out, or after the date just wanted to be friends and I never heard from them again. I was about to learn that no matter how far I run, ppl will always be the same, until I change what I want.
April came in so softly and quietly. I wasn't quit done with the dating scene but I was slowing it down a bit. I had been taken to San Francisco for the first time since I lived here and it was beautiful to drive into. This guy I was with lived on Twin Peaks (the highest elevated point in SF) and "needed to stop home" before we went out. I wasn't born two days ago, but I played along getting my plan together as we drove. When we pulled up to his house, he parked in the garage and asked me to come in and 'view' the house. I asked if he had a living room, dining room, kitchen, bathroom and bedroom? When he answered yes confusedly, I replied 'then I know what ur house looks like, I will stay in the car.' After pleading, I told him that he is wasting time sitting here. So as I sat in the car waiting, he came back out again and said it was gonna be longer than he expected and that it would get hot in the garage. I said that's fine, opened the car door and sat right where I was at. Needless to say, I went home right after, but the kicker is he didn't take me back to Oakland. I went to Civic Center Bart.
This was also the month I went to the hospital cause my left ear went deaf and for three weeks I couldn't hear. The doctors didn't know what was wrong, but one day, as Im going into the tunnel to SF....my ear POPS and it hurt like hell. But I can hear now. Toward the middle of the month, I decided my methods at finding a suitable date were slim to none so I did something different. I played 'Myspace Idol', its where I 'browse friends' on Myspace, and get as specific with what Im looking for and when the finals come up, I sent each one a message. It was only three ppl I messaged and only one replied. His name was Dax Johnson. I was about to fall so fast for this man so heavily and he was about to give the feelings back. But what I wouldn't have foreseen coming is his deep seeded issues would cause the demise of our 4.5 week relationship. And now the place I was staying wanted me out by the end of April, and my relationship wanted me out by the beginning of May.
May......wow.
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