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05 October 2008

Peace in Rest



So this has been the longest my depression has lasted this year, and last week didn't help any. I lost interest in my writing, I lost interest in my show, I even lost interest in my business. But last Thursday I got news that one of my closest friend, Krys 'Buddy' Smith, passed away at 33 because of kidney failure. He was my buddy for a long time and had planned to see him before the end of the year. But we hadn't decided if it was going to be here in California or down in Miami. Now, with his loss in my life, I don't which way to turn. I feel as if I am falling apart slowly and that no one seems to care. I feel angry and sad and can't meet anyone new without being an ass. Until I deal with myself and my emotions, I will force myself to write through it.




Dearest, most sweet, Krys,

Your gone and I have no idea what to do. I have trouble accepting the fact, so I don't think this time I will. I will be like you went on to Miami without me, and forgot to take your phone. But I can understand why God would want you closer to him, cause you were truly an angel in my life. I love you and will miss you.

Jonny

July 22nd, 1975- August 6th, 2008