Made 4 U (fka Unisex The Town) Epi5 Excerpt

When I had unlocked the door to the apartment I have in Downtown Oakland, I noticed all the lights were on; the kitchen light, the light above the stove, the living room light, all the lamps in the living room, and the bedroom light. I never made it to see if the bathroom light was on, because that’s when I began to hear movement. My feet scurried across the floor and a smile broke across my face when I knew it was my lover in the bedroom. He stopped me in my tracks by coming to the door with a blank look on his face. I saw that the bathroom light was on and four suitcases that had been packed and sat by the foot of the bed. William began to close the bedroom door and I began to wonder what was going on.


“You didn’t tell me you found a place.” I naively started.

“I didn’t,” he coldly responded and then moved me out the way to walk past and into the living room. I saw him grab movies that I know he had bought, walked back into the bedroom and put them in an open suitcase on the bed.

“They sending you on an assignment?”

William sighed and looked at me.

“No,”

“Talk to me please!”

He zipped up the fifth suitcase and slammed it on the ground by the others.

“Do you know what it felt like to see you lying in the bathtub half dead?”

My eyes were zoned in onto my feet and I walked unconsciously to the bed and slowly sat at the foot.

“Do you have ANY idea of what would have happened if I decided not to come home?” William’s voice grew louder and angrier. Without thinking I replied there was only one idea.

“This is no time to fucking joke,” he boomed, “Imagine me hanging from a ceiling fan with a belt around my neck.”

“I can’t,” I whispered.

“Well, you forced me to live and be a witness to that feeling. The pain and the horror that shot through my body is something nobody should ever feel. Ever!”

“And do you ever care why I tried to kill myself?”

“No, there is no excuse to ending-“

“I am HIV positive, William, H-I-V POSITIVE!” I stood up at this point, my eyes full of tears and at a yell.

“And, so what? People have syphilis, people have influenza, people have fucking virus’s every single day and they live with it. You are no special, Kenny!”

“Who, who in the hell do you know that lives with influenza? Exactly, you’re being completely stupid and insensitive to what I am dealing with right now.”

William picked up two of his suitcases and walked toward the front door as I followed.

“So, you’re leaving me cause I tried to kill myself? I need you to talk to me, please.” I heard the plea in my voice and him not answering. He just walked back past me into the bedroom and got two more suitcases. And I followed.

“William, don’t do this please. I…I need you to be here with me. I love you. Please, stop! Don’t give up on me!” I cried as he carried the last suitcase past me. He spun around and I saw anger in his eyes like I did that night.

“I gave up on you when you gave up on yourself.”

And everything after that was pretty much a blur.

Introduction to New Blogger

I'm new to the blogging world, my friend Jon (my best friend from my early childhood) asked me to blog for him and I am very excited about it. I'm currently a student @ North Carolina A&T state university at which im studying broadcast production. I have learned that bloggin is a key tool in the world of media is using all form because everything is converging. So over the course of my semester I while be opinion blogging about the projects I am doing as well as showing these projects for who ever would interested.

Give Me Away (Kaddish Yatom)

When I die give what's left of me away

to children and old men that wait to die.
And if you need to cry,
cry for your brother walking the streets beside you.
And when you need me, put your arms around anyone
and give them what you need to give me.

I want to leave you something,
something better than words or sounds.
Look for me in the people I've known or loved,
and if you cannot give me away,
at least let me live in your eyes and not in your mind.

You can love me best by letting hands touch hands,
and by letting go of children that need to be free.
Love doesn't die, people do.
So, when all that's left of me is love,
give me away.


Dedicated to Katrina: You will be missed

Donnie McClurkin Gay Rant

How surprising was it that none other than the infamous Miss Donnie McClurkin gave a sermon on how being gay was the same as being a vampire? And how surprising was it that this said sermon was held at a Church of God in Christ convention? Not surprising? I didn't really think so. Since the COGIC business is ran by closeted and self hating queens, not to add homophobic heteros. It appalls me on how easily these words just flow from his mouth, just how much a black person who lives on Wisteria Lane can talk bad about a black person living in Florida Evan's apartment appalls me.

Donnie became famous (and more confused) when he went public to say that he was delivered from his homosexuality. Now, I won't talk about that, but I will say, being a person of the Christian faith, I will say that he is a liar. Jesus doesn't just take you from something and let's you swim in temptation, as Donnie has CLEARLY voiced he

goes through. When you are freed of a pain that is hitting you, whatever it may be to you, Jesus completely removes it...as much as you want it removed.

Conclusion; Donnie is still a homosexual that hates his life, mad at other gays who are doing well (that are out), and needs to feel better about himself by getting a group of people who feel the same way around him to keep love from entering. Sit the hell down and shut the hell up!

New Editions to ASP Blog

This year is starting as a growing year, and we are proud to introduce our new blogger 'Sour Candy'. She gives you in your face mojo that will have you fanning yourself. Enjoy upcoming blogs from our new Miss Sour Candy.

The best of both worlds. Honesty and lies. Sympathetic and uncaring. "If you think I am one thing then I am the opposite too."